ex girlfriend AGAIN......ARGHHHHHH

I really can't afford to have my ex girlfriend in my life as she really is the only thing I care about enough that when she is upset I lose my head and then in turn huge amounts of money. In a few minutes of rage it is not hard to lose £5000 online. By the time I calm down the damage is usually already done and the hole to deep to dig myself out.

So I decide enough is enough I have to totally just block her out. So I am playing away then 9pm text comes through from her and reads along the lines of:

'You fucking cunt, you have done something to piss me off again etc get out of my life'

Naturally I reply asking what I have done now. Then she says she found out I took another girls number from her workplace. We haven't gone out for ages and I took the girls number after we split up, it was about three months ago and nothing happens. Am I in the wrong? I don't think I have done too much wrong except perhaps be a bit insensitive. However she always talks to guys in front of me and has upset me before. Now it is not my fault if I am attracted to good looking girls! I am only human, the funny thing is in this case the girl is really fun and friendly.Because she is 19 or 20 my ex calls me a pervert, alcoholic drug addict! Nice! So naturally I tilt, it is time to hit the cash tables. Now absolutely anything can happen as there is quite a lot in my account at the moment. I start with the minimum $500 and immediately I tilt even MORE when it is folded to me in the blind with QQ...

***** Betfair Poker Hand History for Game 456622184 *****
NL $10/$20 Texas Hold'em - Wednesday, December 17, 03:25:25 GMT 2008
Table Boron 04 6-max (Real Money)
Seat 5 is the button
Total number of active players : 6
Seat 1: Punterz08 ( $500 )
Seat 2: Barbapapa ( $3,888 )
Seat 3: al873mac ( $3,749 )
Seat 4: LazyEye ( $1,970 )
Seat 5: forbearing ( $1,725.64 )
Seat 6: M Corleone ( $1,991.50 )
M Corleone posts small blind [$10]
Punterz08 posts big blind [$20]
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to Punterz08 [ Qd, Qs ]
Barbapapa folds
al873mac folds
LazyEye folds
forbearing folds
M Corleone folds
Returning uncalled bet [$10] to Punterz08
** Hand Conclusion **
Punterz08 wins $20 from main pot
************ Game 456622184 ends ************

So I decide as soon as the blind reaches me again I will leave the table so naturally on the last hand I get fucked over with a monster hand:

***** Betfair Poker Hand History for Game 456622622 *****
NL $10/$20 Texas Hold'em - Wednesday, December 17, 03:28:47 GMT 2008
Table Boron 04 6-max (Real Money)
Seat 4 is the button
Total number of active players : 6
Seat 1: Punterz08 ( $500 )
Seat 2: Barbapapa ( $3,628 )
Seat 3: al873mac ( $3,709 )
Seat 4: LazyEye ( $1,940 )
Seat 5: forbearing ( $1,565.64 )
Seat 6: M Corleone ( $2,497 )
forbearing posts small blind [$10]
M Corleone posts big blind [$20]
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to Punterz08 [ Kc, Kd ]
Punterz08 raises to [$70]
Barbapapa folds
al873mac folds
LazyEye folds
forbearing raises to [$230]
M Corleone folds
Punterz08 goes all-in
Punterz08 raises to [$500]
forbearing calls [$270]
** Showdown **
Punterz08 shows [ Kc, Kd ]
forbearing shows [ As, Ks ]
** Dealing Flop ** [ Qs, 4h, Ah ]
** Dealing Turn ** [ Ac ]
** Dealing River ** [ Ad ]
** Hand Conclusion **
forbearing wins $1,017 from main pot with four of a kind, Aces
************ Game 456622622 ends ************


Now it is going to go seriously wrong! Hand after hand I miss and the loss builds up. I play almost every two cards like a headless chicken and refuse to fold...


***** Betfair Poker Hand History for Game 456622754 *****
NL $10/$20 Texas Hold'em - Wednesday, December 17, 03:29:49 GMT 2008
Table Boron 04 6-max (Real Money)
Seat 6 is the button
Total number of active players : 6
Seat 1: Punterz08 ( $510 )
Seat 2: Barbapapa ( $3,628 )
Seat 3: al873mac ( $3,709 )
Seat 4: LazyEye ( $1,940 )
Seat 5: forbearing ( $2,082.64 )
Seat 6: M Corleone ( $2,467 )
Punterz08 posts small blind [$10]
Barbapapa posts big blind [$20]
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to Punterz08 [ 7d, 5d ]
al873mac folds
LazyEye raises to [$70]
forbearing folds
M Corleone folds
Punterz08 calls [$60]
Barbapapa folds
** Dealing Flop ** [ 5c, 3d, 4s ]
Punterz08 checks
LazyEye bets [$100]
Punterz08 goes all-in
Punterz08 raises to [$440]
LazyEye calls [$340]
** Showdown **
Punterz08 shows [ 7d, 5d ]
LazyEye shows [ Ts, Tc ]
** Dealing Turn ** [ 3c ]
** Dealing River ** [ Ac ]
** Hand Conclusion **
LazyEye wins $1,037 from main pot with two pair, Tens and Threes
************ Game 456622754 ends ************



***** Betfair Poker Hand History for Game 456622912 *****
NL $10/$20 Texas Hold'em - Wednesday, December 17, 03:30:56 GMT 2008
Table Boron 04 6-max (Real Money)
Seat 2 is the button
Total number of active players : 6
Seat 1: Punterz08 ( $1,000 )
Seat 2: Barbapapa ( $3,598 )
Seat 3: al873mac ( $3,936 )
Seat 4: LazyEye ( $2,467 )
Seat 5: forbearing ( $1,862.64 )
Seat 6: M Corleone ( $2,467 )
al873mac posts small blind [$10]
LazyEye posts big blind [$20]
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to Punterz08 [ Kh, Th ]
forbearing raises to [$70]
M Corleone folds
Punterz08 calls [$70]
Barbapapa folds
al873mac folds
LazyEye calls [$50]
** Dealing Flop ** [ 9s, 9c, 6s ]
LazyEye checks
forbearing checks
Punterz08 bets [$140]
LazyEye folds
forbearing calls [$140]
** Dealing Turn ** [ 2h ]
forbearing checks
Punterz08 bets [$375]
forbearing goes all-in
forbearing raises to [$1,652.64]
Punterz08 folds
Returning uncalled bet [$1,277.64] to forbearing
** Hand Conclusion **
forbearing wins $1,247 from main pot
************ Game 456622912 ends ************

***** Betfair Poker Hand History for Game 456623425 *****
NL $10/$20 Texas Hold'em - Wednesday, December 17, 03:34:44 GMT 2008
Table Boron 04 6-max (Real Money)
Seat 2 is the button
Total number of active players : 6
Seat 1: Punterz08 ( $2,040 )
Seat 2: Barbapapa ( $3,752 )
Seat 3: al873mac ( $4,040 )
Seat 4: LazyEye ( $2,377 )
Seat 5: forbearing ( $2,454.64 )
Seat 6: M Corleone ( $2,417 )
al873mac posts small blind [$10]
LazyEye posts big blind [$20]
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to Punterz08 [ 2c, Td ]
forbearing folds
M Corleone raises to [$70]
Punterz08 raises to [$180]
Barbapapa folds
al873mac folds
LazyEye folds
M Corleone folds
Returning uncalled bet [$110] to Punterz08
** Hand Conclusion **
Punterz08 wins $170 from main pot
************ Game 456623425 ends ************



***** Betfair Poker Hand History for Game 456623670 *****
NL $10/$20 Texas Hold'em - Wednesday, December 17, 03:36:33 GMT 2008
Table Boron 04 6-max (Real Money)
Seat 5 is the button
Total number of active players : 6
Seat 1: Punterz08 ( $2,237 )
Seat 2: Barbapapa ( $3,752 )
Seat 3: al873mac ( $3,960 )
Seat 4: LazyEye ( $2,347 )
Seat 5: forbearing ( $2,424.64 )
Seat 6: M Corleone ( $2,357 )
M Corleone posts small blind [$10]
Punterz08 posts big blind [$20]
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to Punterz08 [ Kd, 4d ]
Barbapapa folds
al873mac folds
LazyEye raises to [$70]
forbearing folds
M Corleone folds
Punterz08 calls [$50]
** Dealing Flop ** [ Ac, Qd, 8d ]
Punterz08 checks
LazyEye bets [$100]
Punterz08 calls [$100]
** Dealing Turn ** [ 4h ]
Punterz08 checks
LazyEye bets [$220]
Punterz08 calls [$220]
** Dealing River ** [ 2c ]
Punterz08 checks
LazyEye checks
** Showdown **
Punterz08 shows [ Kd, 4d ] a pair of Fours
LazyEye shows [ 5s, As ] a pair of Aces
** Hand Conclusion **
LazyEye wins $787 from main pot with a pair of Aces
************ Game 456623670 ends ************

***** Betfair Poker Hand History for Game 456624752 *****
NL $10/$20 Texas Hold'em - Wednesday, December 17, 03:45:18 GMT 2008
Table Boron 04 6-max (Real Money)
Seat 4 is the button
Total number of active players : 5
Seat 1: Punterz08 ( $2,000 )
Seat 2: Barbapapa ( $4,190.50 )
Seat 3: al873mac ( $3,780 )
Seat 4: LazyEye ( $2,571 )
Seat 5: forbearing ( $2,384.64 )
Seat 6: M Corleone ( $2,394 )
M Corleone posts small blind [$10]
Punterz08 posts big blind [$20]
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to Punterz08 [ 5c, 7s ]
Barbapapa folds
al873mac folds
LazyEye folds
M Corleone raises to [$60]
Punterz08 calls [$40]
** Dealing Flop ** [ 4s, 6h, 2h ]
M Corleone bets [$90]
Punterz08 calls [$90]
** Dealing Turn ** [ As ]
M Corleone bets [$225]
Punterz08 calls [$225]
** Dealing River ** [ Ad ]
M Corleone checks
Punterz08 bets [$480]
M Corleone folds
Returning uncalled bet [$480] to Punterz08
** Hand Conclusion **
Punterz08 wins $747 from main pot
************ Game 456624752 ends ************

***** Betfair Poker Hand History for Game 456624840 *****
NL $10/$20 Texas Hold'em - Wednesday, December 17, 03:46:06 GMT 2008
Table Boron 04 6-max (Real Money)
Seat 6 is the button
Total number of active players : 5
Seat 1: Punterz08 ( $2,372 )
Seat 2: Barbapapa ( $4,190.50 )
Seat 3: al873mac ( $3,780 )
Seat 4: LazyEye ( $2,571 )
Seat 5: forbearing ( $2,384.64 )
Seat 6: M Corleone ( $2,019 )
Punterz08 posts small blind [$10]
Barbapapa posts big blind [$20]
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to Punterz08 [ 6s, 6h ]
al873mac folds
LazyEye raises to [$70]
M Corleone folds
Punterz08 calls [$60]
Barbapapa folds
** Dealing Flop ** [ 4h, As, Kd ]
Punterz08 checks
LazyEye bets [$100]
Punterz08 calls [$100]
** Dealing Turn ** [ Jd ]
Punterz08 checks
LazyEye checks
** Dealing River ** [ 9c ]
Punterz08 bets [$360]
LazyEye folds
Returning uncalled bet [$360] to Punterz08
** Hand Conclusion **
Punterz08 wins $357 from main pot
************ Game 456624840 ends ************

I continue to play bad and bluff lots (luckily most uncalled) and then the pace steps up, I know the guy has an overpair like QQ/JJ but I just want a chance to hit a draw as I haven't hit any yet and then leave evens:

***** Betfair Poker Hand History for Game 456625567 *****
NL $10/$20 Texas Hold'em - Wednesday, December 17, 03:52:19 GMT 2008
Table Boron 04 6-max (Real Money)
Seat 2 is the button
Total number of active players : 6
Seat 1: Punterz08 ( $2,518 )
Seat 2: Barbapapa ( $4,215.50 )
Seat 3: al873mac ( $3,590 )
Seat 4: LazyEye ( $2,271 )
Seat 5: MintSodas ( $1,940 )
Seat 6: M Corleone ( $2,383 )
al873mac posts small blind [$10]
LazyEye posts big blind [$20]
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to Punterz08 [ Jc, Tc ]
MintSodas raises to [$70]
M Corleone folds
Punterz08 raises to [$200]
Barbapapa calls [$200]
al873mac folds
LazyEye folds
MintSodas calls [$130]
** Dealing Flop ** [ 2d, 4c, 6c ]
MintSodas checks
Punterz08 goes all-in
Punterz08 bets [$2,318]
Barbapapa calls [$2,318]
MintSodas folds
** Showdown **
Punterz08 shows [ Jc, Tc ]
Barbapapa shows [ Ks, Kh ]
** Dealing Turn ** [ Qs ]
** Dealing River ** [ 6s ]
** Hand Conclusion **
Barbapapa wins $5,263 from main pot with two pair, Kings and Sixes
************ Game 456625567 ends ************

It is a miss and now I am down $5000/£3500. The aggression must continue:

***** Betfair Poker Hand History for Game 456626526 *****
NL $10/$20 Texas Hold'em - Wednesday, December 17, 04:00:31 GMT 2008
Table Boron 04 6-max (Real Money)
Seat 3 is the button
Total number of active players : 6
Seat 1: Punterz08 ( $2,355.37 )
Seat 2: Barbapapa ( $7,027.50 )
Seat 3: al873mac ( $3,594.50 )
Seat 4: LazyEye ( $1,980 )
Seat 5: MintSodas ( $2,197 )
Seat 6: M Corleone ( $2,280 )
LazyEye posts small blind [$10]
MintSodas posts big blind [$20]
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to Punterz08 [ 5d, 6d ]
M Corleone raises to [$70]
Punterz08 raises to [$200]
Barbapapa folds
al873mac folds
LazyEye folds
MintSodas folds
M Corleone folds
Returning uncalled bet [$130] to Punterz08
** Hand Conclusion **
Punterz08 wins $170 from main pot
************ Game 456626526 ends ************

***** Betfair Poker Hand History for Game 456626641 *****
NL $10/$20 Texas Hold'em - Wednesday, December 17, 04:01:36 GMT 2008
Table Boron 04 6-max (Real Money)
Seat 6 is the button
Total number of active players : 6
Seat 1: Punterz08 ( $2,305.37 )
Seat 2: Barbapapa ( $7,027.50 )
Seat 3: al873mac ( $3,711.50 )
Seat 4: LazyEye ( $1,970 )
Seat 5: MintSodas ( $2,167 )
Seat 6: M Corleone ( $2,247 )
Punterz08 posts small blind [$10]
Barbapapa posts big blind [$20]
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to Punterz08 [ 6s, 9d ]
al873mac folds
LazyEye folds
MintSodas folds
M Corleone raises to [$70]
Punterz08 raises to [$230]
Barbapapa folds
M Corleone folds
Returning uncalled bet [$160] to Punterz08
** Hand Conclusion **
Punterz08 wins $160 from main pot
************ Game 456626641 ends ************

***** Betfair Poker Hand History for Game 456626695 *****
NL $10/$20 Texas Hold'em - Wednesday, December 17, 04:02:15 GMT 2008
Table Boron 04 6-max (Real Money)
Seat 2 is the button
Total number of active players : 6
Seat 1: Punterz08 ( $2,395.37 )
Seat 2: Barbapapa ( $6,997.50 )
Seat 3: al873mac ( $3,691.50 )
Seat 4: LazyEye ( $2,000 )
Seat 5: MintSodas ( $2,167 )
Seat 6: M Corleone ( $2,177 )
al873mac posts small blind [$10]
LazyEye posts big blind [$20]
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to Punterz08 [ 7c, 6s ]
MintSodas raises to [$70]
M Corleone folds
Punterz08 calls [$70]
Barbapapa folds
al873mac folds
LazyEye folds
** Dealing Flop ** [ 4h, 4d, Jd ]
MintSodas bets [$127.50]
Punterz08 raises to [$320]
MintSodas calls [$192.50]
** Dealing Turn ** [ 3d ]
MintSodas checks
Punterz08 bets [$607.50]
MintSodas folds
Returning uncalled bet [$607.50] to Punterz08
** Hand Conclusion **
Punterz08 wins $807 from main pot
************ Game 456626695 ends ************


I am now down £4000 but have a $3000 stack so a chance to get a few big pots. Then I lose the lot in hands too embarrassing to show so now its £6000 down! Well if you are still reading this post you may as well see some good news and a few hands from the miraculous recovery!!!

***** Betfair Poker Hand History for Game 456628172 *****
NL $10/$20 Texas Hold'em - Wednesday, December 17, 04:17:00 GMT 2008
Table Boron 04 6-max (Real Money)
Seat 2 is the button
Total number of active players : 5
Seat 1: Punterz08 ( $1,940 )
Seat 2: Barbapapa ( $7,234.50 )
Seat 3: Bz10 ( $2,000 )
Seat 4: LazyEye ( $4,562 )
Seat 5: MintSodas ( $2,064 )
Seat 6: M Corleone ( $2,030 )
LazyEye posts small blind [$10]
MintSodas posts big blind [$20]
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to Punterz08 [ Ac, 2c ]
M Corleone folds
Punterz08 calls [$20]
Barbapapa raises to [$90]
LazyEye folds
MintSodas folds
Punterz08 calls [$70]
** Dealing Flop ** [ 3h, 4s, Jd ]
Punterz08 checks
Barbapapa bets [$144]
Punterz08 calls [$144]
** Dealing Turn ** [ 5c ]
Punterz08 checks
Barbapapa bets [$444]
Punterz08 raises to [$900]
Barbapapa goes all-in
Barbapapa raises to [$7,000.50]
Punterz08 calls [$806]
Punterz08 goes all-in
Returning uncalled bet [$5,294.50] to Barbapapa
** Showdown **
Punterz08 shows [ Ac, 2c ]
Barbapapa shows [ Ks, Js ]
** Dealing River ** [ Qs ]
** Hand Conclusion **
Punterz08 wins $3,907 from main pot with a straight, Five to Ace
************ Game 456628172 ends ************

***** Betfair Poker Hand History for Game 456628371 *****
NL $10/$20 Texas Hold'em - Wednesday, December 17, 04:19:02 GMT 2008
Table Boron 04 6-max (Real Money)
Seat 5 is the button
Total number of active players : 5
Seat 1: Punterz08 ( $4,206 )
Seat 2: Barbapapa ( $5,294.50 )
Seat 3: Bz10 ( $2,000 )
Seat 4: LazyEye ( $4,552 )
Seat 5: MintSodas ( $1,762 )
Seat 6: M Corleone ( $2,010 )
M Corleone posts small blind [$10]
Punterz08 posts big blind [$20]
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to Punterz08 [ Ah, As ]
Barbapapa folds
LazyEye folds
MintSodas raises to [$52.50]
M Corleone folds
Punterz08 raises to [$190]
MintSodas calls [$137.50]
** Dealing Flop ** [ Qd, 3s, 5h ]
Punterz08 bets [$360]
MintSodas calls [$360]
** Dealing Turn ** [ 7s ]
Punterz08 bets [$1,110]
MintSodas goes all-in
MintSodas raises to [$1,212]
Punterz08 calls [$102]
** Showdown **
Punterz08 shows [ Ah, As ]
MintSodas shows [ Qc, 9c ]
** Dealing River ** [ 5s ]
** Hand Conclusion **
Punterz08 wins $3,531 from main pot with two pair, Aces and Fives
************ Game 456628371 ends ************


For a while the table changed with a lot of raising and reraising preflop then folds, it seemed as though some players were dumping to others in order to have me covered so with 5 of the 6 players now playing 300bb+ it was too deep especially if some were playing together to continue so I started on a new table and had more success instantly!

***** Betfair Poker Hand History for Game 456629863 *****
NL $10/$20 Texas Hold'em - Wednesday, December 17, 04:36:47 GMT 2008
Table Boron 05 6-max (Real Money)
Seat 4 is the button
Total number of active players : 6
Seat 1: Bz10 ( $2,000 )
Seat 2: Barbapapa ( $8,181.50 )
Seat 3: junkstar ( $1,440 )
Seat 4: danylaroo ( $3,548.75 )
Seat 5: Punterz08 ( $2,168 )
Seat 6: WillyWonky ( $3,252.75 )
Punterz08 posts small blind [$10]
WillyWonky posts big blind [$20]
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to Punterz08 [ Kh, Kd ]
Bz10 raises to [$70]
Barbapapa folds
junkstar folds
danylaroo raises to [$260]
Punterz08 goes all-in
Punterz08 raises to [$2,168]
WillyWonky folds
Bz10 folds
danylaroo calls [$1,908]
** Showdown **
danylaroo shows [ Ac, Kc ]
Punterz08 shows [ Kh, Kd ]
** Dealing Flop ** [ 6h, 9c, Qd ]
** Dealing Turn ** [ Jh ]
** Dealing River ** [ 5c ]
** Hand Conclusion **
Punterz08 wins $4,423 from main pot with a pair of Kings
************ Game 456629863 ends ************


***** Betfair Poker Hand History for Game 456629954 *****
NL $10/$20 Texas Hold'em - Wednesday, December 17, 04:38:12 GMT 2008
Table Boron 05 6-max (Real Money)
Seat 1 is the button
Total number of active players : 6
Seat 1: Bz10 ( $1,970 )
Seat 2: Barbapapa ( $8,121.50 )
Seat 3: junkstar ( $2,000 )
Seat 4: danylaroo ( $1,380.75 )
Seat 5: Punterz08 ( $4,353 )
Seat 6: WillyWonky ( $3,389.75 )
Barbapapa posts small blind [$10]
junkstar posts big blind [$20]
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to Punterz08 [ 3h, 3d ]
danylaroo folds
Punterz08 raises to [$70]
WillyWonky folds
Bz10 calls [$70]
Barbapapa calls [$60]
junkstar calls [$50]
** Dealing Flop ** [ 6h, 5s, 3s ]
Barbapapa bets [$199]
junkstar calls [$199]
Punterz08 goes all-in
Punterz08 raises to [$4,283]
Bz10 folds
Barbapapa folds
junkstar calls [$1,731]
junkstar goes all-in
Returning uncalled bet [$2,353] to Punterz08
** Showdown **
junkstar shows [ 4h, 5c ]
Punterz08 shows [ 3h, 3d ]
** Dealing Turn ** [ 9h ]
** Dealing River ** [ 5d ]
** Hand Conclusion **
Punterz08 wins $4,336 from main pot with full house, Threes full of Fives
************ Game 456629954 ends ************


Suddenly from being around £6000 down i am £2000 up and then somehow fold this hand and then decide to quit:

***** Betfair Poker Hand History for Game 456630030 *****
NL $10/$20 Texas Hold'em - Wednesday, December 17, 04:39:35 GMT 2008
Table Boron 05 6-max (Real Money)
Seat 2 is the button
Total number of active players : 5
Seat 1: Bz10 ( $1,930 )
Seat 2: Barbapapa ( $7,852.50 )
Seat 3: junkstar ( $0 )
Seat 4: danylaroo ( $1,380.75 )
Seat 5: Punterz08 ( $6,689 )
Seat 6: WillyWonky ( $3,389.75 )
danylaroo posts big blind [$20]
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to Punterz08 [ Jd, Jh ]
Punterz08 raises to [$60]
WillyWonky folds
Bz10 raises to [$200]
Barbapapa folds
danylaroo goes all-in
danylaroo raises to [$1,380.75]
Punterz08 folds
Bz10 folds
Returning uncalled bet [$1,180.75] to danylaroo
** Hand Conclusion **
danylaroo wins $460 from main pot
************ Game 456630030 ends ************

Somehow I have escaped a mad tilt session for the second night in a row. I no it is a matter of time before i have a minus £20-30,000 session. Thankfully it has not happened yet. One concern to me at the moment is the amount of times betfair has crashed the last few days, after the cash tables I was playing a $500 and a $750 heads up game and having had several bad beats the site went down for me. The blinds were high and by the time I got back it was game over so thats almost £1000 lost instead of £1000 gained in cold blood. My sng stats have been bad for the last few weeks and I have to fix that. I am losing over the last 1000 games I have played for the first time in ages

Punterz08 1,000 -£1.57 £48 -4%-£1,572LLLWWWWWBetfair Last1000 x

That said I am up in the region of £30,000 this month somehow so if the ex girlfriend just stops starting arguements with me it may just manage to be a happy christmas after all!