Tough Decisions

Poker is easy, play and destroy. It is that simple, no mercy is the only way. I decided to have an early night tonight and was in bed at midnight, I wake up an hour later and then get back to sleep, then I wake up at 3a.m. and can't get back to sleep. If I think about things I can never sleep, some days it takes me hours to fall asleep even if I am exhausted. Lately I have so many decisions to make and I hate it, my decision making is getting so bad that sometimes if I go to the pub I will order three different drinks, I may not even drink some of them but I just cant make the choice initially! Now last year I gave my word on several things, well loads. I don't think I have ever broken my word over the last few years, this has cost me a lot of money!

Example 1:
Last year I am drunk in the pub and the barman Scott who is quite a cool dude brings out a sponsorship form for the London marathon. Now anyone who is willing to go through the pain of a first marathon deserves the utmost respect. The young kid is running for Great Ormond street hospice, a place very close to my heart. Now its not enough I randomly gave a £15,000 prize to this place and a few others a few months before I decide to sponsor him for double whatever everyone else gives him up to a maximum of £1000. I wake up the next day and remember, I guess I could have spoken to him and said let me change it to £100 but more fool me for being drunk maybe it will teach me a lesson! Anyways I end up paying the £1000 maximum, he puts it in the pub safe and some scumbag steals half of it. So so so scummy, may sound bad but I would love whoever stole it to have a kid at the hospital one day and suffer real guilt at being a scummy thief. Somebody else in the pub asked me for sponsorship recently when I was sober, I signed the form for £10 or £20... if I was drunk it would no doubt have been much more!

Example 2:
Last year I needed a flat so I purchased one the next day having looked at it for just 2 minutes. Well I agreed to the price £185,000, and seeing as it was part of a chain it took ages to go through. In the meantime a lot happened, I no longer wanted the flat and the credit crunch started in all earnesty. But hey I have given my word and still buy the place even though it was probably worth £10,000 less and if I waited a year it would be £20,000 less....and I didn't even want the place anymore.

Now through this drunken rambling I don't even know where this post is going (yes I cheated and drank before I reached the £20,000 target). Thats it, tough decisions...I am having so many lately. Here is one example, well it is not even a decision for me which is the problem. I tend to do the morally right thing instantly instead of perhaps choosing another option which is best for me. At the moment my finances are on around a minus £100,000 downswing. This is made up of £20,000 spent on a new kitchen, £30,000 poker loss last Friday and almost £50,000 owed to me. Wait starting to sober up a bit more now and I can't really post what I want due to a 100/1 shot that someone reads it who shouldn't and it causes any hurt. So the reason for this post and one of the reasons why I can't sleep and now I am not even going to post it. Sorry people for wasting five minutes of your life. I shall make up for it with some good posts and pictures when I come back from Las Vegas in April.

Funny hand from earlier....

Seat 1 is the button
Total number of active players : 2
Seat 1: gamblin ( 1,970 )
Seat 2: Punterz08 ( 1,030 )
Tourney Level:3 Blinds(25/50-(no ante))
gamblin posts small blind [25]
Punterz08 posts big blind [50]
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to Punterz08 [ Qc, Jc ]
gamblin calls [25]
Punterz08 raises to [150]
gamblin calls [100]
** Dealing Flop ** [ 9c, Ac, Kc ]
Punterz08 bets [150]
gamblin raises to [300]
Punterz08 calls [150]
** Dealing Turn ** [ Qd ]
Punterz08 bets [50]
gamblin raises to [100]
Punterz08 raises to [150]
gamblin raises to [200]
Punterz08 raises to [250]
gamblin raises to [300]
Punterz08 raises to [350]
gamblin raises to [400]
Punterz08 raises to [450]
gamblin raises to [500]
Punterz08 raises to [550]
gamblin raises to [600]
Punterz08 calls [30]
Punterz08 goes all-in
Returning uncalled bet [20] to gamblin
** Showdown **
gamblin shows [ 2c, 7c ]
Punterz08 shows [ Qc, Jc ]
** Dealing River ** [ 8d ]
** Hand Conclusion **
Punterz08 wins 2,060 from main pot with a Flush
************ Game 467105038 ends ************

Back to the £20,000 challenge, a good finish earlier and another £1000 since I woke up just now. All in all I have made £3500 today so total is now plus £5950. I wish I hadn't had a drink at all as it would have tasted so good to have a beer at the end of the challenge! This week I have a 35% share in somebody playing the £1000 GKUPT in Brighton. I have never seen a return on my numerous stakings of players in the past. This time though I feel as though I have as good a chance as ever of having a payday. The person has less of a reputation than most I have paid entry fees into world series events etc in the past but I think this is a good thing. Nowadays I would rather buy in a quiet unassuming player than somebody who just talks a good game. I just have to hope if he goes far he doesn't suffer from any pressure. Time will tell!


£20,000 running total..... +£5950